The Weight of His Smile

Anonymous

High School

August/September 2024

I catch his smile, and my heart skips,

But guilt floods in, like sinking ships.

For every glance, I feel the strain,

A quiet joy wrapped tight in pain.

I wish it wasn’t him I see

In dreams and thoughts that torture me.

For in his eyes, there’s a warmth, a light,

But it’s not mine to claim outright.

You love him too, and I can’t bear

The weight of feelings I shouldn’t share.

So every laugh, every word, I hide,

Burying secrets deep inside.

It eats at me, this quiet war,

What could be less, and nothing more.

For though I long, I choose to stay,

A silent friend, the honest way.